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  • Wrapped in a black suit

    Trigger warning: death, grief and loss of parent I’ve learned that grief comes in waves. I’m fresh off one tonight and would love to share this ride. Buckle up tight. I was organizing my closet earlier today, which led to me getting my wedding dress out and my dads suit and putting them on my…

  • “Yes Lord”

    As the sun rises for the day, I take off the mom hat and put on my nurse hat. 0650 comes and I’m walking to start my day. The days at work always start the same-praying from my car as I walk to the building. Praying for my family, praying for my coworkers, praying for…

  • Maybe Jesus said- you have one day.

    You couldn’t see my face, the blanket completely covered my body. The day was coming to an end and all day long I struggled. Until I pulled back the covered and looked outside and realized the sunset was stunning and I ran outside. I ran to Gods painting of the day and ran to a…

  • Who’s next?

    His death was brutal and a pain that I can’t even imagine. He gave his life for all of us. A beautiful sunny day, the wind was blowing and the shade was the perfect spot. I tried to get him to open his window all day, he said he would melt. We laughed, but continued…

  • Hot>Lukewarm

    Lukewarm. I remember the days when I made excuses for living in this category. For years, I was lukewarm, knowing right from wrong but continuing to live the way I wanted to, in the world. Ignoring my convictions. Whew, saying that now and looking back on that time in my life, I just want to…

  • Praise anyway

    I recently heard someone say when your troubles are great, let your praise be greater. The past three weeks have been extremely heavy. In fact, so heavy, it was impossible for me to separate home from work. Between work being defeating and my confidence being crushed and home life feeling cornered, and me being the…

  • Silence

    God, thank you for another beautiful day. God, I pray over this space and all those who choose to stay to read. Soften our hearts Father, open our hearts to you and let us remember to love one another, as you love us. Amen. As days pass and turn into years, I have started to…

  • Rheumatoid Arthritis-the journey so far

    Well, it came just as I expected. A diagnosis of seropositive rheumatoid arthritis. I just turned 32 and with that, came a diagnosis that’s supposed to stay with me forever. This post will be more of a journey entry, as keeping a pen and paper journal wasn’t a good choice at the time, I started…

  • Realistic goal setting for the day

    Anyone else’s home in absolute disarray right now post Christmas celebrations? We pick up and turn around, and it’s a disaster again. I didn’t count how many new items entered our home in the past three weeks, but I’m sure it’s close to 1,000. One toy we opened last night for Leon had 72 pieces…

  • Held

    This week’s requested topic: “maintaining and finding faith again during loss and major grief.” If this doesn’t hit close to home. Trigger warning: mature only One night in particular came to mind. I was at a Halloween party, October 2020. Quickly approaching was the date of my fathers death, the one year mark was like…